A guy knows what a guy likes."Īn image came to my mind of Dave on his knees with Sam's cock in his mouth, and then another of Sam on his back getting fucked by his new work friend. "there is no woman in the world who can give a blow job better than a guy can. Much against my will, I was getting a little turned on. Ever since Sam had mentioned sucking and fucking, I'd felt a certain tightness in my jeans. "It's just a question."īut it was more than a question. Sam grabbed my hands and pulled them away from my ears.īut when a couple of people in the bar turned to look at us, we grew quiet again. "Stop!" I said, covering my ears with my hands. "What, you can't stand the thought of your twin brother sucking a guy's dick?" "I'm trying to keep certain pictures out of my head, though." "You sure you're OK about this?" Sam asked. I ordered another round of drinks and when they came I sat quietly for a time nursing mine. "That's OK," he said, smiling for the first time since we sat down. "Because you're my twin brother and I love you and I want to be truthful with you. And I don't want anybody to know until I figure things out for myself." But there's a guy I work with I've seen several times, and we've become sort of friends with benefits, and sometime we just bareback it." "Some have been Craigslist hookups, and it's always safe sex with them. "Are these total strangers? Is there a chance you could get some disease?" But I definitely like having sex with guys again, too." "I mean, I'm still attracted to women, and I've had great sex with a couple since the divorce. "When you say you hook up with guys," I finally managed to say, "what exactly do you mean? I mean, what do you do?" He had been faithful to his wife, he said, but now that she was out of his life he was going to do what felt right.įor a long time after he told me this I didn't say anything, but just kept staring at my drink. He kept seeing guys after graduation but finally gave it up when he got married. And since I hadn't followed up on it I guess I assumed he hadn't either.īut over the next hour or so Sam told me he had had many encounters in college, including several with a guy named Dave, who I knew pretty well but never would have thought gay. I'd never had any reason to suspect that he might be gay our youthful experimentation seemed just that, experimental. He seemed nervous when we met, and he drank two doubles before he came to the point: He'd started hooking up with guys. Then, about six months ago, he asked me to meet him for a drink. He seemed lonely, though, because the women he dated usually drifted away when they found out he is a single dad. It wasn't easy for him to manage everything, but he did pretty well with the help of family members. I was not surprised: they had always bickered a lot and she eventually developed a drinking problem serious enough that he was able to get custody of their two kids. Shortly after we turned 30 Sam told me he was separating from his wife. But I never acted out those fantasies, with Sam or anyone else, and he didn't either. I had fantasies about jacking off with Sam from time to time, and I'd be surprised if he didn't do the same. But once we started having regular straight sex we both kind of forgot about it. In Sam's and my case, we did learn to masturbate together, and did it many times in our teen years. And I have read somewhere that up to 10 percent of otherwise straight men occasionally have sex with other men.
Lots of guys, for example, learn how to masturbate from or with other guys and have at least a few same-sex experiences as teenagers or in college, though they leave all that behind when they get married and have families. That one I wouldn't know how to answer, because with twins, as with everyone else, sexual orientation can be complicated. Is it always the same in twins - both straight, both gay, both bisexual - or can one swing one way and the other another? One thing these party people rarely work up the nerve to ask about is sexual orientation. But no, we have never tried it with our spouses, because even identical twins are different enough that a spouse is likely to notice. We did it a couple of times when we were teenagers and a couple of more times in college. If the questioners have had a few drinks, they'll sometimes ask whether we've ever secretly subbed for each other with our girlfriends.
People are fascinated they want to know if we still dress alike (not any more, we're 35 now), if people still mistake us for one another (ALL the time), if we're like those twins who make up their own language (no). If I'm talking to someone at a party, and the conversation starts to flag, all I have to do is mention my twin brother and off we go. Having an identical twin means, among other things, always having a topic for conversation.